I love him so much it is killing me...
don't worry,
I am fine. but you haven't left my mind I love you so much that it's killing me. I see how perfect you are I see the sparkle in you're eyes. I wish you would love me as I have loved you for so many years but you will not and that is ok. I have to sit by the girl that hates me in English. fml.
i dont know anymore... i try so hard not to freak out but a freak out happens everyday. it sucks because no matter how much i want to have control over them i cant. i sit there grabbing my hair thinking of why am i still here what did i do wrong and self harming. it happens for hours on end. one girl. one girl made these freak out happen so much. ...i cant do it anymore...
I do not know why I fell for her, but i did. mayne it was how she said i love you. maybe its because if how she makes me feel. i dont know. what i do know is that i love her. she is not mine but i wish she was. i want to hold her and call her mine. i want to give her the world. i want to show her how perfect she is.
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