I love him so much it is killing me...��������

don't worry,
I am fine.
but you haven't left my mind
I love you so much that it's killing me.
I see how perfect you are
I see the sparkle in you're eyes.
I wish you would love me as I have loved you for so many years but you will not and that is ok.

*raises hand*

I think I literally heard my heart break.... :/

I have to sit by the girl that hates me in English. fml.

and at the end of the night I still end up crying...

god I'm fucking done.

i dont know anymore... i try so hard not to freak out but a freak out happens everyday.  it sucks because no matter how much i want to have control over them i cant.  i sit there grabbing my hair thinking of why am i still here what did i do wrong and self harming.  it happens for hours on end.  one girl. one girl made these freak out happen so much. ...i cant do it anymore...